Again, I want to thank my readers for their concern! It's really been a help.
On the insurance front, I still haven't received my cards, but was told by my HR that I could print out copies off the web. So I was able to do that. Since I got the low option, I still have to pay 30%, which for SHARE at ST Anthony's is around $66 A DAY.
Yeah, tell me that THAT doesn't push one of my anxiety buttons!
On the therapy front, I'm still trying to do my timeline, but my past wasn't that traumatic. My therapist has suggested I may be Bipolar. I was completely shocked, I mean, pick my jaw up off the floor time! In my mind, I have never been manic. Part of my homework, besides the timeline, was reading up on Bipolar. It seems like I may have Bipolar II, which has milder manic episodes, called "hypomania". Which, like I said, I can't tell you I've ever had. But also, you could have recurring depressive episodes (yes), be either resistant to antidepressants or they stop working after awhile (yes).
The only thing I can compare the way I'm feeling to is when I learned at around 16 I had epilepsy (no, I don't have seizures anymore). The shocked, numb feeling giving way to the "well, that answers that" feeling. Right now I'm still more shocked than relieved.
Oh, that brings up another thing I read, some study says (or implied, or whatever) that people with epilepsy are more prone to Bipolar.
I may have answers now, let's see what happens next.
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Even though it may not have been all that traumatic (your past) it may have been stressful, which is important to include too.
It sounds like you're feeling better and I hope that continues; it's easy to dwell on what's wrong and sometimes hard to remember the good things that happen each day, (like yesterday's intensely blue sky, or the way kids look when they're sleeping or the smell of cinnamon).
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