It turns out, I'm a big wiennie! I'll be 49 on Monday, (and, yes, the federal government has graciously made is a holiday, since I'm so modest, they call it Columbus day) Yay!! I get to hang onto my forties for one more year. And I'd say I don't feel old, but that's not quite true. In my mind, I'm the same dumb kid I always was. My body, however, is singing a different tune. Losing weight is more difficult (of course that assumes effort). Joints are achey at times. Periods are hit and miss (I think I had one in July), and no, I don't miss them. Hot flashes and night sweats are new. And Oh My God, OMG, OMG! are they annoying! And I've been mildly depressed lately, without a real reason for sadness. My mother had had a hysterectomy after I was born, but she always said they left in her ovaries. So, even though she wouldn't have a a meno to pause, she should have had the other symptoms. Theoretically. I wished I had paid attention. I brought this on myself, you know. I asked for my period to stop. Well, it's time to pay the piper. I really don't have anybody to discuss this with. My (older) sister had a hysterectomy in her mid-thirties, she had an ovary removed earlier because of a cyst, so at that time had one. Well, it had a big cyst on it, too, so there it went. She's been on hormone replacement ever since. So she doesn't know. And I don't really want to blab on and on about this, because I don't really want to annoy people. It's sooo...whiney. But there you go.
My son is now in the far east, right now his ship is creeping out North Korea by being in South Korea. It's actual base is Yokosuka, Japan. And yes, empty nest syndrome is another thing I'm not dealing well with.
sigh.
